Confessions of a Dangerous Hand

Friday, September 30, 2005


I can't sleep... All I'm doing is rip some cds into mp3s... Yawwwwn! I'm sure I'll wake up at around 5pm again.

Differences and Depression

My friend Belo and I have been constantly debating about his and my musical preferences. We met during first year Architecture. We seem to have clicked right away as friends. And we would always draw together along with another friend of ours, practicing our craft and stuff. Eventually, he became the one who does the most detailed backgrounds in the history of… well, my friends. And me, I guess I was the only one who thought I could be a professional artist and shifted to Advertising with a little persuasion from another good friend of mine, Gem. Anyway, during those early years in Architecture, he and I started off with the same kind of music preference. We’d both listen to Alice in Chains, Soundgarden, FooFighters, STP, Live and several Filipino bands who were in bloom at that time like Wolfgang. So there, through the years, we were always the same until quite recently (a couple of years before… not quite recent) when I started listening to Coldplay, Stereophonics, Franz Ferdinand, Gorillaz, Orange and Lemons, etc… those for him sounds… Euro. He can never understand why I do. While he, started listening to noisier kinds of music… Children of Bodom, stuff like that that you never see in record bars, at least here, I think. So I guess we’ve grown apart in terms of music, he still remains a good friend of mine and my harshest critic in art. I could probably say I am to his. But what’s the point of this blog entry?! In terms of music, I really don’t care about the technical side of it… how the guitar riffs were formulated, how it sounds, how good the mixing is, how good the drummer is… that is not important to me. What I want to listen to is the sincerity of the song and the artists. Like right now, I can totally feel how James Blunt is feeling when he wrote “You’re Beautiful.” To me, as long as I feel it…

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

-- To me, these words and how he sings it, it speaks to me. It’s actually quite sad and depressing. Reminds me of a lot of people. I was once like that, so I guess that’s why… and there’s Guia’s admirer… not sad at all for him though. Feh! >:b

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Good Old Friends

Yesterday, I met up with a college friend of mine. We were classmates for a brief period of time but it actually felt like we’ve known each other for years. It’s really nice to rediscover friendship that you thought was lost. With such a small world to go around, it’s not surprising to see some of the people you haven’t seen in a long time. It’s just that people choose to forget about other people. For example, me, whenever I see old classmates of mine, from my early school years, I choose not to approach them and talk to them, say ‘Hi’ or something. Recently, I’ve been seeing a lot of these old people in places I never thought I’d see, perhaps, that is exactly the reason why I go there. Heh! But they’re there and what choice do I have but to say hi. People are naturally friendly with old acquaintances. Not me though. Regrettably, I easily forget names, not faces. You could warp their faces into goo but I’ll be able to recognize them right away… just not their names or where I met them. Anyway, Gem and I talked for a long time and had fun catching up! She was still the same person I met years ago, 8, I think. And that is always a good thing for me. Never changing. I wish people are more like her whenever seeing each other after a long time, like there never was a lost friendship or lost time, just good old friends.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Wrap Up

I just finished watching Rockstar INXS' final episode. As expected, it was JD who won the competitions most coveted prize, being the frontman for INXS. It was sort of an emotional finale for me because, i know I wont be able to see these amazing performers again. I was exceptionally happy for Marty, who's been my favorite, I know he and his band, Lovehammers will go a long way from here. Marty has grown to an amazing frontman and the Lovehammers will only benefit from that and I do hope we'll see their albums released here in the Philippines.
The other day, I went to Greenhills with the sole purpose of getting myself a copy of Final Fantasy: Advent Children. I got one and I was absolutely blown away. The amount of work given here was unbelievable. FF7 characters were given a new life... and what a believable life that was for each character. It made me want to play FF7 again, and hopefully, I'll have better fate than what I had the first time I played it. But sadly, I don't have time for it.
Lately, I've been ripping some of my CDs into MP3s for transfer on my MP3 player. I remember my college days when I usually go to school with a pair of earphones in my ear. Seems I can't go out of the house without some music. Listening to it while walking, catching the bus, waiting, eating, just in everything I do. It's wonderful how technology has changed the way we listen to music, portable or otherwise. Back then, I'd be bringing along a bulky Walkman, strapped to my belt and it's kind of embarrassing to think about it now. I had a Sony Walkman without the Auto Reverse function for the cassettes. So whenever side A would finish, I have to open the cassette deck and turn over the tape, all these standing in a crowded LRT car. And now, with the current tech, the music player has been reduced to keychain size. Wouldn't it be funny to see someone with a big and bulky pair of HEADPHONES jacked in a thumb-sized player?! I swear if I see anyone in those, I'll laugh, sure I'll get into a fight but well, it'll be hilarious!
Manga production is a bit slow right now. I cant seem to get out of this killer headache I've been having for days now. On and off, it comes back and out again from day to day. What could it be... perhaps I should change my pillows, get some of those ergonimically designed pillows that follow the contours of your head giving you the best sleeping experience. But what's stopping me from getting some of those is precisely that! The chance to enjoy your sleeping experience! I may not be able to get out of bed if I have those. The contradictions in life... long ago, I told myself I don't like choices. It only makes my life complicated. Like if you have interchangeable celphone covers... I used to have that problem. Never settling for one cover, color, anything. But one thing I am, is I am faithful to people. Because people, you don't choose them, they are given to you.

Listening to: Jet, Stereophonics, Mad at Gravity, Thornley, Sensefield

Monday, September 12, 2005

Catching Up

Wow! It's been a long time since I saw this screen. I haven't had the time to write... well, I did, but I was sort of too lazy to write about anything. Not much have been happening, just work and a few things here and there. Hmm... where to start... NML Volume 2 has been pretty steady in its production stage. So far, in abook that's already delayed, we haven't had a big delay in terms of production. If you think about it, it'll be almost a year since my last production page in Volume 1. I finished it in December, and now, the "ber" months are here and already, I'm feeling this choking pressure on the deadline. And a new project is now in the works for me. Although we haven't really started yet, I have been doing some initial sketches for the main character. Right now, it's all hush-hush. I know I'll be able to handle 2 books at a time. Let's just hope I won't get confused with these two books, characters and mood changing from one book to the next.
My Wacom is still jittery, but from reading into the Wacom forums, I was able to decrease the jitters by a slightly uncivilized way... I had to step on my CPU to get the electricity grounded a bit. So the problem with the Wacom isn't the tablet itself but the electricity it's connected to. Soon, I'll have to get the lines looked at by an electrician.
Earlier, I ws watching the Extended Version of The Return of the King... and seeing it in it's entirety really made more sense than what we've seen on the big screen. Of course, that's what happened with the previous films, the EVs were really better, I just wish they'd release it this way. I'm waiting for the release of StarWars:Episode 3. The problem would be, should I hold out on buying the DVD on November 1 or wait til the Complete DVD set arrives?! But with my excitement, I'm sure I'll get the DVD on November 1. No questions asked.